Have you ever just messed up big time?
Do you feel like you took three steps forward and then 10 steps back?
Are you feeling worthless, hopeless, and just like, what's the point?
Trust me when I say... I get this like a thousand percent.
A couple of months ago I messed up big time. I gave in to some temptation and I was feeling so much guilt and shame. I really just started letting the thoughts consume me of feeling so worthless and not worthy of God's love, not worthy of doing the Bible studies that I do, and not worthy of spreading the gospel and telling people the truth about God's word because I just felt like I was so worthless.
I had practiced so much self-control, I have been building my relationship with God and had this strong relationship with God where I have him guide me through every decision in life, and I just dropped the ball. I didn't feel like there was any coming back from that. I felt like there was really just no point in trying to spread the gospel and make an impact and really try to help other people when I couldn't even figure out how to help myself. I couldn't even do the things that the Lord wanted me to do.
I had already acknowledged my guilt, I already repented, I prayed, I really did some soul searching, and I was already forgiven, but I still felt that overwhelming sense of not feeling worthy and just not feeling like I was equipped to tell you guys about God and do these Bible studies. Luckily I had some episodes already batched for my podcasts so I could put content out there and for about a week, I just really prayed, talked to God, listened to Christian music, and did everything that I could to find my worth again.
I started going through some different scriptures about worth and what the Bible says about it. I'm going to actually write some of these for you guys because I know someone out there reading this right now, and it may be you, I know you messed up. You recognized that you messed up, you repented, and now you're just stuck in this limbo. The limbo of feeling unworthy, unworthy of God's love, unworthy of doing the calling that he placed in your heart, and fulfilling the purpose that he has for you. I want to help you get out of that because that's exactly where I was.
The first scripture is:
"Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. " -Luke 12: 6-7
So in these verses, it's saying that even though five sparrows are sold for two pennies, God doesn't forget any of them. We are worth more than many sparrows, the very hairs on our head are numbered. If God doesn't forget sparrows that are worth so little, he's never going to forget us: his children that are precious and worth so much to him.
Another scripture:
"You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us." -Romans 5: 6-8
These verses right here just go to show that we are worth so much to God: to Jesus Christ. Jesus died on the cross to forgive us of our sins. He gave up his life so that whoever believes in him shall have eternal life and not perish. Just thinking of that makes me think, why would I ever think that I'm not worthy to fulfill the calling that God's placed in my heart? When he loved us so much, he gave up his only son to die on the cross to forgive us of our sins. I would be doing a disservice if I didn't do what was commanded of me and become a vessel for God's work to make an impact in other people's lives, to let everyone know about God, and to spread the gospel and the truth about God's word.
You are so worthy. I am so worthy. We are children of God and we are precious.
The last scripture is:
"Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings. And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast. To him be the power for ever and ever. Amen." -1 Peter 5: 6-10
This right here is why I am here right now on this blog because I know that there are other people out there that are going through the same thing that I just went through with feeling unworthy and being spiritually attacked by the devil, having all of those self-doubts, and just wanting to throw in the towel. But we have to stand firm in our faith even though the devil is prowling around like a lion and he wants to devour us and we have all of these feelings of guilt and shame and just feeling so unworthy because we messed up.
We're all human, we're gonna mess up, we're not perfect, we're all sinners. Christ died on the cross for our sins: he knew we were sinners. When we have a strong relationship with God and we're saved and we have the Holy Spirit within us, and we have the fruits of the spirit within us, and we lean on God for guidance and follow him, then we won't make as many mistakes as we did when we were living our life without God. But that doesn't mean that we're not going to make mistakes. We are not immune to making mistakes just because we're saved.
We have to stand firm in our faith and know that even whenever we mess up, and we may mess up big time, it doesn't mean that we're hopeless, worthless, and we shouldn't be staying faithful to the calling that God's placed in our heart and making an impact in other people's lives. There are lots of other people out there that are going through the same things that we are, or that have been through the same things that we have been and we would be doing a disservice if we didn't speak up and tell our story. And tell not just the good things, but the bad things also, and the times that we mess up and the times that we feel worthless and unworthy and how we got through it so we can help other people get through it too. After we've suffered for a little while, Christ himself is gonna restore us and make us strong, firm and steadfast. That's exactly what Christ is doing in me every single day.
I am so thankful and grateful for every single thing that Christ has done for me and I'm thankful for my sufferings and for my hardships because they have molded me into the person I am and the person I'm going to become. No matter what I go through, no matter how many times I mess up, or whatever I feel, I'm going to continue to come on here and tell you guys everything. All the good, all the bad, and spread the gospel, the truth about God's word, the scripture, and the tips that I've learned to help me with hardships and things that I'm struggling with, so I can help you guys and make an impact in your life.
So if you've been feeling unworthy, if you made a mistake, or maybe you've made many mistakes, or you just feel like you've messed up big time and you have all of these feelings of self-doubt consuming you, I want you to know, and I want you to believe it in your heart, that you are worthy. It's okay to make mistakes. We're all human. We're all gonna make mistakes. God loves you anyway. The most important thing is acknowledging your guilt, repenting, asking for forgiveness, and truly changing your ways. As long as you've repented for what you've done and in your heart, you truly want to change your ways, God will forgive you. That's all there is to it.
All of these feelings of self-doubt, telling you, "Oh, there's no point in doing this. You're too far gone. God could never love someone like you." That's the devil trying to get in your head. He's like a roaring lion and he's trying to devour you. Stand firm in your faith and tell him, "devil go away, you don't belong here. The Lord is my savior and I am forgiven. I'm a child of God, I am worthy and I will not let you attack me anymore."
Another thing that really helps me when I have these feelings of self-doubt after I read my scriptures, pray to God, and I tell the devil to get away from me and that he doesn't belong here, is doing faith-based affirmations. You can write down some faith-based affirmations and just read them whenever you are having those feelings of self-doubt and feeling unworthy, or you can go to the mirror and say them to yourself. Some of the faith-based affirmations I say are:
- "I am worthy of God's love."
- "I'm a precious child of God."
- "There is nothing that I can do to make God not love me."
Those are just a few faith-based affirmations. If you want to write those down, you can use those or use your own. Those should definitely help you as they've helped me.
Don't ever forget that you're a precious child of God and you are worthy, you are so worthy. You're worthy of love, you're worthy of fulfilling the purpose that God has for you, you're worthy of letting other people know about God, and you're worthy of all of the amazing blessings that are coming your way. Stand firm in your faith and stand firm in knowing that you are worthy and don't let the devil get ahold of you. All he wants to do is devour you and spit you out. God has so many amazing things in store for you, so many blessings that he wants to put in your life, and so many things he wants to do for you; you just have to tap into it, stay faithful to the calling that he's placed in your heart, and when you make mistakes, and when you mess up big time, just acknowledge your guilt, repent, ask for forgiveness, and truly change your ways, follow God, do what's commanded of you, and know that you are worthy.
I love you guys so much.
I'm going to say a prayer for you guys. So if you would just close your eyes and pray with me:
Lord, I pray that you'd be with every single person reading this right now. Lord, I pray that you wrap your arms around them and let them know that they are worthy. I pray that you let them feel your love and that they know that once they've repented and in their heart, they truly want to change their ways, that you will forgive them and you have forgiven them. And that they are worthy to continue doing the calling that you've placed on their heart and they're worthy of your love. I pray that they know that you're right here with them, all they have to do is put their hand out and you will guide them and give them the strength, courage, knowledge, and wisdom that they need. Lord, I pray that they open up their heart, their mind, their spirit, and their body to you Lord and that they don't let the devil come in and devour them. Lord cast out the devil, he has no place with these people. Lord, I pray that you would put a hedge of protection over them and that you guide them through the path that you have for them. I love you so much. In Jesus's name, Amen.
Never forget to choose faith over fear.
-Lorena Camille (Faith Fuels My Fire)
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