I’M GOING TO BE SUPER RAW AND HONEST WITH YOU GUYS.
I have not been myself lately...
I go through spurts (few and far between) where I get excited, motivated, inspired, passionate, and then out of nowhere... it just all goes away. Then I start to get drained of energy, motivation, passion, emotion, just everything. I literally took a 3 hour nap mid day yesterday (something I NEVER do.)
For someone with anxiety and someone that feels like they have to be in control of every aspect of their life... this has been super difficult to deal with (which is why I’ve been inconsisent on here and been just posting a lot of recipes.)
I’ve known the solution to this but I’ve been avoiding it... For the past couple of weeks I have been avoiding giving it all to God. Like TRULY GIVING IT ALL TO GOD.
I pray to him, I acknowledge him, I do faith based affirmations, I say he’s in control- but I’ve still been holding on to the idea that I am in control of my own life.
Today I just couldn’t hold on any longer and I started breaking down and then I took these 3 steps to let go and truly give it all to god:
STEP 1: LET YOURSELF FEEL:
- Let yourself feel all of the emotions; happiness, sadness, fear, anger, resentment, alll of the feelings that you’ve been holding back.
- Write it all down. Everything that you’ve been feeling lately.
- Allow it to really sink in.
- It’s okay to feel, it’s okay to break down, it’s okay to feel like you’re losing control (in fact, it’s liberating.)
- Let it all out girl, every bit of it. Don’t hold back.
STEP 2: BE STILL AND BREATHE
- Once you’ve let everything out, just be still (this may be difficult.)
- Close your eyes and just sit there in silence (if your mind starts to wonder or won’t stop, pray that God will take all of the distractions away and that you have peace of mind.)
- Let yourself be completely present in this moment. Take deep breaths- focus on your breathing. Inhale through your nose (feeling your stomach inflate) and exhale with your mouth (feeling your stomach deflate.)
- Do this for a few minutes until your mind and body feels completely at peace.
STEP 3- PRAY WITH INTENTION
- Pray with the intention of truly releasing the idea or feeling that you are in control of your own life.
- Examples of what to say or do during this prayer:
• Let God know how you’ve been feeling (even though he already knows) and then give him complete control.
• Give it all to him-every bit of your heart and soul is his.
• Let him know that you trust in him completely to lead you through the path that he has planned for you.
• Don’t ask for anything, just give him your all and listen.
These are just things that I said and did in my prayer but this your prayer and your talk with God so say or do whatever is right for you in that moment.
You may feel overwhelmed like I did while praying. You may even try to fight saying the words you need to say or want to just stop praying altogether. This is just your defense mechanism to keep the control you think you are losing.
Just take deep breaths and pause when you need to. God knows your heart, soul, and your thoughts. Don’t stress yourself out.
Once you’ve completed these three steps you will start to feel a weight lifted off your shoulders. It may be instant or it may take a little time like it did for me.
Just trust the process and know that God is in control. He has the best intentions for you and he is working in your favor.
Now go and follow the path that he is leading you on.
Before you go I will leave you with this prayer... I pray that you have peace of mind knowing that God is in complete control. I pray that you give all of your fear, anxiety, worry, sadness, and anger to him and let him take complete control. I pray that you release the feelings that you are holding on to and give them all to God. I pray that he fills you with love and light and that you never forget how truly amazing our God is. In his name, Amen.
Never forget to choose faith over fear.
-Lorena Camille
(Faith Fuels My Fire)
p.s. You may have to repeat these steps from time to time. This is not a cure all. We are all a work in progress.
P.s.s. If you want to see more of my weight loss journey, check out my YouTube Channel (Faith Fuels My Fire.) I will be posting a vlog every Monday and Wednesday.
You can also follow me on Instagram (faithfuelsmyfire.) I'll be posting and doing stories frequently. I'll follow you back :)
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