Have you ever prayed and felt like it wasn't answered?
Or you feel like it was answered but then realized that you were so dead set on that answer, but that is not actually what God intended for you to do?
Do you ever get a voice in your head hours, days, or weeks after praying and completely ignore it because you think there is no way that is God calling you to do that?
I did this FOR MONTHS!!!
God had been putting this calling on my heart for a while but I couldn’t quite figure out what it is.
For months I'd been struggling with having the motivation and inspiration to post content on these platforms that I’ve been using (hence why I didn't post on here for over a month and even before that I was posting very inconsistently. )
I initially started these platforms because of my passion for creating videos and writing.
But honestly, it started to feel more like work than a passion for me and that had been really stressing me out.
I kept praying for clarity on what it is that I should be doing to get me closer to fulfilling the purpose that God has for me and I kept feeling like I got the answer and then a few days or weeks later, I'd be super unmotivated, stressed, and confused again.
I kept getting this voice in my head at random times telling me to make a podcast.
Every time I heard that voice or got the urge I would just be like "oh that sounds like a good idea in the future but not right now. Right now I need to focus on growing on the platforms I'm currently using."
I went through a whirlwind of emotions throughout these months and I felt like I was starting to go insane.
I would get all these ideas for content and then never even post it because it didn't feel right.
My anxiety started getting worse and I started diving into a deep depression again (which is a hole that is super hard for me to get out of.)
Luckily God didn't give up on me like I was starting to give up on myself.
He kept pushing me to dig deeper and feel emotions that I hadn't let myself feel in years. I was on an emotional roller coaster for months.
And I literally kept going through the same cycle over and over again.
After months of this dark period and doing a lot of soul searching and working through it with God; I FINALLY GOT THE ANSWER!
Or I should say that I finally opened up my eyes and heart to see the answer because God had already given me the answer time and time again, I just didn’t want to see it.
So finally one day, after doing 4 of the 5 things that I talk about in my first episode, I got so much clarity that this is exactly what I need to be doing.
And then I put my headphones in and started recording my VERY FIRST PODCAST EPISODE!
After recording that episode I felt a little silly that it took me so long to do it, but this happened all in God’s perfect timing.
If I would have just listened to the voice of God telling me to start a podcast I could've saved so much stress and confusion.
So next time you pray for clarity, make sure you are listening to God when he gives you the answer. More than likely, it's going to be completely opposite of what you expected it to be.
Keep your heart and mind open to any possibility and when that voice says jump, take a leap of faith and don't question it.
Before I let you go, I want to leave you with this prayer: I pray that your heart and mind is open to new possibilities. I pray that you get clarity of the next step that God has for you to take. I pray that you give your all to God and let go of the visions you have and that you start listening to the plans that God has for you. In Jesus's name, Amen.
Never forget to choose faith over fear.
-Lorena Camille
(Faith Fuels My Fire)
p.s. If you'd rather listen to Faith-based, business, mindset, and mental health tips, then check out my podcast. There I will share my personal experiences, stories I've never told before, and bring you along the hot mess life of mine. New episodes every Monday.
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